One week now of no ADHD meds

I think it's better. I don't see the wild look in his eyes anymore and I am seeing more personality in the last 2 days, less aggression and dare I say it...more cooperation. He is still on the Intuniv, which we increased from 2 mg to 3 mg last Monday. Monday and Tuesday, he took a nap in the afternoon, so I was not happy that the med was apparently making him tired, but it was only those 2 days and he's been fine since.

I have no idea how things will be for him when he goes back to school. But, frankly if he is less aggressive, has more personality and doesn't have to deal with the cruddy side effects of those stimulants....then I don't care if he is wiggly, talkative and impulsive. He is lucky to be so bright and I am confidant that his smarts will help to compensate for his lack of focus.

The children's crisis responsive team came out this week and talked with us. They were helpful, and said they thought we were on the right path by having him evaluated by UCLA (not until June 2011, but still....we have an appointment!) and also agreed that having a behaviorist come into the home to work with Blake and with us would be very helpful. I have contacted someone that was recommended and hope to hear back from her next week.

Tomorrow is Christmas and I am always a little sad at Christmas time. My dad died in a car accident when I was 12 years old and it was 2 months before Christmas. I still remember that empty and lonely feeling all those years ago and it always comes back a little bit this time of year.

But it is nice to have hope and to have the love of my family. I am really a very fortunate person to have those things. Blake is doing well. James is providing the comic relief when needed and Baby L reminds us that love is really all you need.

Merry Christmas!